Jumpsuits have been pivotal in my journey to feeling confident and loving myself.
It may sound weird that a piece of clothing could have such an impact on my life but this one piece of clothing represents all the fear I have felt in my life.
The center of my anxiety is control. Having control means staying comfortable and never venturing out into the unknown. And that is what jumpsuits were for me.
Yes, were. They are no longer holding me prisoner. And it feels so good.
I'm still working on my anxiety but I am in such a different place today and have made many major accomplishments in my life where I am in a better space.
I don't like to talk about my anxiety too much publicly because there is such a negative stigma attached to mental health in general. But to know me, is to know all of me, even the bad stuff.
And this is what my blog is all about. I may sound like the Dalai Lama sometimes but know that it's a daily struggle for me. I work on me every day. Some days are great and some are not. But on those bad days, I do things I love and know will uplift my spirit. Like wearing a jumpsuit and a red lip.
I think this is why I like shiny, sparkly things and bold colors and prints. It's a way for me to forget the bad stuff and have fun with things I love. And it's not just fashion that heals my spirit.
Sometimes it's watching my favorite TV show, dancing around the living room with my nieces, going to Starbucks to get a grande Mocha Frappachino with extra whipped cream or just having a dinner date with my mom.
I think this is why I love to travel and see wide open spaces and different parts of the world. Most people dream of being on a beach somewhere hot whereas I dream of going on an Alaskan cruise or seeing the Moais on Easter Island (bucket list trip!) or castle hopping in Ireland.
Jumpsuits are one of my happy places, just like traveling, iced coffee, my nieces and etc.
That wasn't always so. I used to loath my body on some serious levels, especially my lumpy thighs so I used to tend to shy away from pants in general. Jumpsuits don't provide any kind of coverage and everything is just out there to see, so it used to scare the hell out of me.
Meanwhile, I did have confidence but I was conflicted because I wasn't fully there with loving myself completely and knowing that flaws are flaws. Everyone has them but they are what makes us unique. No one is perfect.
Jumpsuits now remind me that it's okay to step out of my comfort zone and take a chance. I don't always need to control everything. Being comfortable can be boring. And I have learned that while the unknown can be frightening, it can also be exciting. You just have to take a chance.
So whenever I am presented with an opportunity to take a chance, I think of how it felt when I made the choice to try on a jumpsuit and discovered that it did look good on me. That feeling of fear that turned into hope that led to happiness.
Not all choices have a happy ending but you'll never know until you take a chance. And that's how we live fully and grow.
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